The Zoo

Today Allie and I went to the Detroit Zoo. We walked around and tried to see the animals. The problem was that they were all asleep from the heat! It was fun and something we have not done in years. We then went to Birmingham and walked around. We bought sun dresses for our Florida trip. Every minute counts with both my girls now. My phone rang with clients that needed things. I got tons of emails on my Blackberry. Normally I would be on the phone but today I did not return calls until 9:30 tonight. I wanted this time with Allie.

We talked about chemotherapy. God forbid. I hope and pray it does not come to that. She told me she would not do it. I then got in a Mom mode and told her I would basically make her do it. Not a good way to approach this conversation. I am hoping it is a conversation we never have to have again. I pray every morning and night she will be cancer free by July 17th, 2009. I tell Allie to think of the cancer leaving her body.

My life is on hold till we get through this. I was ready to fall in love and commit this time. I wanted that for myself. I am going to be turning 50 and I am simply ready to be partners and share my life with a person that is right for me and I for him. I work hard on my mental and physical self so that I can love others and receive love as well. The receiving part I have never been as ready for as I am now. Allie's illness has taught me that life is too short and about what a roller coaster ride it can be. You have to live every second honestly.