Today With my Daughter

I was in the gym and I was talking to a Doctor about my daughter's cancer and I started to cry. I broke down in front of a person I hardly knew. When I got to the car I just cried and called my sister and my best friend. I look at my daughter and I am so worried. Every second is precious now. My words to her now are, "Did you put your sunscreen on?". Wednesday is her first appointment. I will try not to cry when I talk to the doctors. You have a child and the love for that child goes beyond any words that can describe it. I love both my girls with everything I have inside of my heart. Now my baby is with cancer and I will do whatever it takes to make sure she lives a life of happiness and love. I will do what ever it takes to make sure she beats this. I am praying to God it is contained and that with surgery they can get it and she can be done with it. Please pray with me. So here I am blogging because I need somewhere to get it all out. As parents we only want the best for our children. As a mother I blame myself that maybe I could have put more sunscreen on her when she was little or listened to her when she said she had this "Funny thing" growing on her. I am so happy she took it upon herself to go to the doctor. She said today "I just knew it was something". She was born 4 pounds 9 ounces of will. I love her and I keep thinking of all the fun times we had and will have together.