Today...

I asked Allie; "How come she is not dealing with the cancer?" She said; "I am dealing with it in my own way." I actually wish I could be more like her; so calm about it. I find myself crying when I am alone. If I am in the gym I will just break down in tears. The gym has always been a place for me to to get it all out. My family and friends tell me these terrifying stories of melanoma. I know they are trying to help because they always have a happy ending. They really don't help though; they scare me more.

Allie is so tired from working two jobs and going to summer school. She studied most of the day today. I wish I could get her to rest more. I want her to take it easy so her system can heal. Honestly, I am like her I would be racing around doing everything too. We are not quitters and to a fault she has that from me.

Saturday night I convinced Allie to take this long walk with me to Dairy Queen. It was horrible! Our feet hurt and it took us two hours from start to finish. Another Mom moment with my baby.