Hard Day

Today Dr Schwartz from the University of Michigan cancer center gave me the news on the other biopsy. The melanoma was deeper and now she needs to go to a surgical oncologist and have a lymph node biopsy. I just cried. The Doctor doesn't think it went into her lymph nodes. I pray so hard for that. She is 19 and the depth of the melanoma warrants a test biopsy on the lymph nodes. The surgery on her breast and lymph node biopsy will be done at once. Then she has three other places they are removing another day to test for cancer. I pray they are not cancerous. I literally have to take this one minute at a time. Sometimes it is so overwhelming I feel short of breath. I stand still in time with such sadness. On the other hand I know how to fight and get through things. I have done it all my life. I have taught my girls to never give up. They don't quit. I am certain Allie will do whatever it takes to make herself cancer free. She already stopped drinking diet pop and talked to me about eating more organic.

I am creating Allie being cancer free by August 1, 2009 and celebrating at Disney World!